Welcome to week ten of my diary series, starting Monday 8th
May 2017.
If you’ve not read one of my diaries before, they are where
I update you on my life, my blog and my journey to improve my health naturally
and become the best version of Kelly. See previous diary posts here.
All Things Blog
Another quiet week blog wise. I’m disappointed in myself as
my aim this week was to upload some mental health posts as it was mental health
awareness week. Sadly, it just didn’t work out for me.
When I started the blog, I was aiming to post three times a
week and on the whole I was managing that. As you will have noticed though I
have slowed down over the past few weeks. I don’t want to beat myself up over
that though as it defeats the object of the blog. This is a positive journey!
From now on I will post when I feel like it. It will be more
fun for me that way and should be an improvement for you too as I’m sure my
posts will be better because of it.
Life
I had a quiet start to the week.
On Wednesday I met a friend for lunch. They helped me take
some pictures to use on the blog. In a packed pub, it was difficult not to feel
a little self-conscious yet I did extremely well in not letting it worry me too
much. This picture is for use in a serious post and I couldn’t stop giggling! People
must wonder why some woman is having a picture taken of her reading the paper?!
(All will become clear in a future post)
On Friday, another friend came around for a cuppa. I had
forgotten she was coming! Thank god, I was in. In the past and even now on occasion
this would have sent me into a mad panic yet again I handled it well and
enjoyed the time with her.
I’m doing so well this may start to be boring for you all
soon!
I am making a real effort to keep up with my friends since
writing my post about how hard I find it to make friends.
Friday ended badly! I take the kids to their swimming
lessons on Fridays. This week we managed to forget Freddie’s bag, luckily, he
had his swimsuit on under his clothes so I decided he and Annie would have to
share a hat, goggles and towel. They swim one after the other so it’s possible.
The panic about what to do about the forgotten bag threw us and there wasn’t time
to go to the shop for sweets like we often do. So, I took Annie down to the
shop whilst Freddie swam, it’s only next door anyway. The problem is that Annie
is going through a phase of struggling to make decisions and regretting
those she does make. Does anyone else have a child around the age of 8 who does
this?
She regretted her sweet choice and when we got back to the
pool refused to eat them and had a meltdown about the whole thing. I managed to
get her into her swimsuit and got the hat and goggles off Freddie and onto her
but she refused to get into the pool and wouldn’t stop crying. I needed to calm
her down but also had Freddie to help dry and change! I was running between the
girls and boys changing rooms (Annie refused to come into the boys). Once Annie
was dressed again she then wouldn’t stop crying as she regretted not getting in
the pool (give me strength) She then wanted her sweets too! I didn’t give them
to her.
During these situations, I am always torn between how best
to handle it. I get so embarrassed if it’s in public for a start. Mainly though
I wonder if the behaviour warrants punishment or not? I did punish her, she didn’t
get her sweets, was told off and knew she was wrong. However, part of me also
just wanted to give her hug as I am sure a lot of it is just her struggling to
handle her emotions rather than being badly behaved and I don’t want her to
think it’s wrong to show negative emotion. Any ideas/advice on this would be
gratefully received.
On Sunday I did the
pretty mudder version of the race for life. I first mentioned my plan to do it
in this post here. It was a huge challenge for me as my CFS has meant my fitness
has been at an all-time low. In addition to that I was hugely anxious about the
whole thing. I intend to do a post all about the experience so keep an eye out
for that soon.
Health
Because of the build up to the race, a difficult meeting I
had to attend and Annie’s meltdown on Friday it has been quite an up and down
week emotionally and I have felt the effects of that on my health. I suffered
with more than one severe headache as well as an increase in my normal CFS symptoms. I slept for eleven hours Friday night and still had two hour long
naps on Saturday as well as more than nine more hours sleep that night.
My body just doesn’t handle stress anymore. Not any type or
any amount. I am sure I must be suffering with adrenal fatigue after years of
emotional stresses and strains. Another thing to try and cure on this journey.
Food
I treated myself this week. I needed it! I also have decided
to start the Candida diet again from Monday. Not because I think I have candida
but because it is a great detox and I feel I need it. I will do another post
all about this.
On Saturday as a final treat we went out for afternoon tea
to Dobbie’s. They do a lovely tea for adults and a special for children which
is so fun and such a treat!
Exercise
I had my gym based physio and did the race. I ached after
both. I am pleased I managed them though and see it as a real positive.
Thank you for reading
Kelly x
Parenting is the most difficult job and we get no training...! I've found a subscription to 'Aha parenting' useful in the past (it's free emailed advice - it's about being kind to yourself too. The address it comes from is: <DrLauraMarkham@AhaParenting.com Try googling, or let me know if you want me to forward you an email so you can have a look... Stay positive Kelly: you're making huge strides forward... Ruth :-)
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