Welcome back to my diary series, this one covers 12th
June until 16th July 2017.
In these diaries, I welcome you into my life and talk about my
health, diet, exercise, family, life in general and of course blogging.
All Things Blog
I was adamant after my last diary post that I would get back
to posting these at least once a week. Yet that was 5 weeks ago and this is the
first one I have managed.
I lost my motivation, my confidence and my routine.
I was due to attend a blogging event in June and was also
due to be on the radio however I cancelled both due to ill health.
It feels like my blogging bubble has burst. But it was so
good, I was doing so well and enjoying it so much and I’m determined to work
hard to get it back.
The one wonderful thing to have come from the blog recently
is the opportunity to review some children’s toys. That has led to me setting
up a YouTube channel for my children. It is something they have wanted to do
for ages and whilst I had my reservations I am glad I gave in as I enjoy
sharing this with them. You can find their channel here, it’s called BananaEyebrow. Please watch, subscribe and comment, it means the world to them.
Children especially will enjoy the videos.
I don’t want this blog to become all about toys as that isn’t
the point of it at all however if I get the opportunity to review something the
kids will love then I will and I hope you can all understand that. Just read
what interests you.
Life, Health and Diet
The stressful situation with my employer that I have hinted
at on here before has dominated my thoughts for the past month.
I keep being rather shady about the situation, that is
because I have tried to keep it out of the blog as I am acting professionally
however It is currently hard to explain my situation without telling you a
little more.
Basically, I have had to raise a grievance against HR and my
line manager for the way they have treated me since my CFS diagnosis almost two
years ago. The grievance was submitted at the beginning of February and it took
until the 22nd June for it to be heard, even then we ran out of time
and I had to go back this week to finish it.
Waiting for the hearing has been stressful, the events that
led to the hearing were stressful and the hearing itself was stressful.
I can’t even enter the buildings at my work now without my
anxiety flaring and must fight back tears. It’s like a kind of post traumatic
shock and being there reminds me of all the upset that has come before and
brings it all back.
I haven’t slept well in a while and stress always aggravates
my CFS and depression.
I won’t divulge the content of the grievance as I still
await the result.
So, my health has been up and down. I’ve had success and
bleak moments too.
There is so much to tell you all!!
My Mum and Dad came to stay last month and my Mum came again this month, I always enjoy and value the time with them. I love them a lot.
I have been back in therapy and have had a successful result
in one area already.
I have come off my anti-depressant pills with the intention
to change to a different type (Fluoxetine to Citalopram) and have had
interesting results.
I have been to three mindfulness classes and loved them.
I have now been vegan and gluten free for 9 weeks now, with only one cheat day when I attended a food festival (oops). I am enjoying it and finding it so much easier than I thought I would.
I have been to the Foodies Festival, FriendsFest and a vegan
market. I have pictures from them all and want to tell you about them all but
it’s too much for here.
It’s all too much to put into one post so I will try my best
to post more regularly again and will either do posts specific to each topic or
elaborate more on them in future diary posts.
The list of blog posts I want to write is now as long as my arm. I haven't even posted one about the mud race I completed and I am so proud of that achievement that I must put it into a post soon.
That’s it for today, a short update to hopefully get me
going again and to let you know I am still around. It sounds a bit negative overall but fear not as I am ending
the 5 weeks feeling stronger and more positive than I started.
Tomorrow we are heading down to a Haven park in Clacton. I
will be doing a blog of our stay and the kids are planning a vlog!
Thank you for reading. Stick with me, you support means so
much to me.
If you’re reading this, I love you!
Kelly x
Good to have you back Kelly! We all need a break from time to time (I'm being very slack with my blog recently) and it sounds like you've had good reason for yours. Just remember you're beholden to no one; it's your blog and you post when you want and what you want. I doubt you'll get unfollowed by anyone because of a lack of posts, it's when we get fed up with 20 a day coming in we'll give up ;)
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